Ah, my sexhy boys ( thats how koreans pronounce sexy) Sexhy much? Ohhhhh yeaaah (:
I dont know why but I miss my boys hell lot. Hais. media and everyone, do not point out seungri's dark rings caaaaaaaaaaaan? angry already ah ! he knows it and dislike people keep on pointing it out. diam diam sudah.


Today hor, working with Filiana hor, so hor, cannot wait hor, faster come hor, 3 to 5 alone hor, no fun hor.
Okay I'm going out now. I wanna get my jollibean with pearl ! hehehhee. kerane air, aku sanggop kluar siang.

And to you, arent you scared when you're starting things back?
hmmm?

siak punye babi busok nak mampos. ok nothing.

THERE IS SUCH WORD AS BENYEK OKAY AZHAR, AMIRA IZZATY & KAK NOOR ! Yesterday was hella fun working with the usuals despite being scolded for coming in 30mins late. I wanna berstory with Filiana but keep on working different shifts ! Most probably tmr? Azhar kept on teasing me when I touched a Baguette which was a little spoiled and soft. I said benyek which means penyek. Then Azhar keep relating lame things to benyek.

Love how we dusturb him by calling him CG. hehehe.

I was told to come in at 3 instead of the actual schedule at 5pm. Member sot actullay cause I planned to get my stuff before heading for work at 5pm. But ugh otogheeeeeeeeee.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI !
This year didn't do anything. I didn't go to the mosque in the morning as I was sleeping like a pig. Didn't go to granny's as mom was dead tired. I was feeling very very lethargic in the afternoon that I could and would sleep whole day. It rained and I was happily watching Bigbang's IN (intimate note). It's a game show, the funniest and the most awesome one I've ever seen, like seriously. Thru out the whole 2 parts of 7 parts each, there wasn't a single time where it was boring. The ending was very emotional but hella fun. Ah, evening and night well spent. LOL (:

That's all.
I love yesterday night (:

Love how you tapped me in the bus, gave me your earphone and wore it for me because I had no idea how to and tuned Tae Yang's Wedding Dress from your phone (:

So this will be the first part of the pictures. Second part will be from Alyssha and from other source. These pictures I've uploaded were from Nabil's camera, yonglin's facebook, kaymin's and from Darian. (: thanks.

Alyssha and I was like friggin late, not we step wanna come in late all. It's funny when it's already 7 plus and we're both at own respective home still dressing up. I went to sleep for like 30 minutes at 6pm. -.- Funny. Thanks mummy jun for sending us there. Reached, cannot register already. So we just go in, take lucky draw number and met the rest at the last table. Food came, all happily eating (:

The video was hilarious but seriously lame. Funniest and weirdest part was me being nominated for prom queen. Of course I didn't win, we all knew that the first couple will win, the minute we all stood on the stage. I didn't know its me even when they called my name out. Mr flavian and Mr goh came to me while I was eating. Dumbstrucked for awhile. Was scared cause I was the last girl to be paired up and I see no more boys to be paired up with. Scarly the host called out the name swen zhen, and he came out from the back. Wow, I said to myself.  Funny how I told him that when we're questioned, he will answer it. He agree. The time comes and question was ask.

Why do you think money is the most important thing in life?
er, who's gonna answer it?

Swenzhen : *points at me*

Funny answer from him.

PAY SCHOOL FEES.
ALAHAI..

skipskipskip.

Dancefloor was the bomb. All of us were shy and reluctantly come onto the dancefloor. Songs after songs, everyone got wilder and wilder. The lights dims and party lights came out, all were hyper.

FIAH, LOOK AT THIS.

http://bigbangkorean.wordpress.com/2009/11/19/bigbang-2010-calendar-diary/#comment-118807

I WANT TO GET THIS. I got the website to order these but I'm sure I have to make the payment thru credit card. I really want those. I really do really really do that I can tear up right now. Fat hope in meeting Bigbang. Getting this would be great. On my off day, I'm gonna be all over the net to hunt for this. Which means, I have to put Iris on hold. Will see you, top, in mysoju soon kay? ahah.

AH I WANT THE CALENDAR LA WALAO.

& Finally I know how it feels to work alone and do most of the closing alone. Thanks to kak Dyla & amira izzaty who constantly come out and help me out although yesterday's crowd weren't that busy. So next time kan, when I'm working with Azhar, I wanna ton the night before and don't show up because I couldn't wake up from my sleep. Well that was he's reason when he showed up in home clothes when we were doing closing. so, yeah.

Suddenly bad mood due to more reasons. Called bestfriend up, almost in tears while complaining about everything. Yesterday's emotion was all mixed up. I was super delighted when I met best friend yesterday. Was suppose to get the shoes I already eyed on but didn't. Had to work by 3 pm -.- Yesterday's schedule was all mixed up too -.- So I'm hoping Filiana doesn't get mad about it.

Was having my break when Don called me. I saw him waiting for me outside Delifrance. I tell you, the slice of garlic baguette almost flew off my hands when I saw him. He told me he couldn't look for me as he only start his break at 5.30 where I will already be working. He got his early break and came to see me. Handsome sia that chinese. hahaha (: (: And I think kak dyla saw him. Yeah. He came again and bid goodbye when Im cleaning.

Last but not least..



Didn't watch Mnet music awards. Thanks to work -.- So, I'm wondering if Bigbang's back or just gd or ?? ANyhooes, congrats to JI YONG SHII ! for album of the year. YG FAMILY did it big this year, once again. Of course, 2NE1 for song of the year ( & other ones ).

Yg family JJANG ! (:

2PM'S victory too (:

But Big bang, don't go Solo. NEVER, I repeat, NEVER ! Hopefully not. It seems like as my Ji Yong shii is already popular on his own. He can survive on his own, as we all can see. What is big bang without him? Well, what is Big bang without one of the members? Seungri's going to school to majoring in theater and acting AND not forgetting how popular he got by STRONG BABY. *CRACK CRACK CRACK* (:
Top's focus are now on Acting and the other two, Tae yang and Dae sung shii too are well known on their own.

HOW NI? and it's possible because you can see, alot of groups spilt after awhile.

I'll be torn apart and that's very sure.

Saturday

Mc for two days on my 2 off days -.- So, what's the point of having MC right ? Mom forbidded me from going back to work after the meeting cause I'm on MC. I'm perfectly fine and I would love to lend a helping hand to the rest as Stock's in. Made Filiana wait outside my house. Sorry eh (: Before that, was happily lepaking at her place watching three channels.

MTV - JK HITS.
ARIRANG - POPS IN SEOUL
KBS WORLD - MUSIC BANK

Jumped out of the seat when I waited for JK HITS to start. First video was Big bang's Sunset glow. Haengbok oi ! Too soon to show Filiana my korean madness don't you think so ? Ah, cannot control already. That one also the same, don't want go back work cause Music Bank featuring SS501. funny.

All that made my day (:

Back home, all pissed off. Watched Witch Yoo Hee till yesterday night.

Sunday. Yeah, woke up real late. Close to four. Cleaned up a little and watch Witch yoo hee till 2 am.
Now, waiting for best friend to call me up. Babe, kater nak teman beli kasooooooooot. Aisey, call cipat !
cipat cipat cipat !

Was already up at 8 am. Couldn't sleep. Didn't felt like I was sleeping the whole night. Weird feeling ya know.. Plus the nightmares. Ah, never ending.

Wokring at 4 later ! And and Don's working in Np too. Sounded to excited when he texted me yesterday night.

And ya know, Eyedrop sucks.
oh, you suck too (: (:  (: (:

Can I keep on complaining here? cause I think that's the only purpose I have to blog.

No matter how I clean, how I nag, how I whatsoever, people in this apartment will never listen. Why? Because I'm the youngest. Youngest and the most thoughtful actually. I clean when I get home from work in the evening or midnight. I clean when I wake up before I leave for work. AND CLEAN AGAIN WHEN I GET BACK HOME THAT NIGHT WHEN THAT MORNING I ALRD CLEANED -.-

Mom kept on nagging, asking me to quit my job because the house is going upside down. If I miss a day of cleaning, she'll nag and make it sound as if the house been left vacant for years or rather a fat ass who sits on the couch and munch the whole time of his life is living in this house. So I wonder..

Since you can't ask abang to quit his Fire fighting job, or kakak who's a teacher you asked me to quit my part time job. Yes, I'm sacrificed. How about you ask them to do their part with the chores rather than you ask me to quit what I wanna do, to do all the chores? How about that?

Push in the friggin chair when you vacant it.
Arrange the cushions when you vacant it.
Wash your cups plates etc when you are done eating.
Put those utensils into the sink, and not just leave it around.
Please do the laundry on your own. You know how to wash it, then dry it ? You don't expect me to do it anymore. Im just gonna leave it on the chair all damp and let the flies & ants come. Happened before.
The bed, please do your own bed before leaving home, kakak. Your mosturizer, your pins your whatever, please keep it after using it.

Oh my, I can go on and on..

And guess what. People at work notice this but the most important people in my life doesn't, except that Abang just noticed it yesterday.

Sore Eyes.

Sister die die claimed it's because of contact lens. Still if it's because of the contacts, sore eyes can't take place meh? It's irritating the hell out of me please. The itch, the numb feeling, watery and stuff. And it's red. I don't think customers will like it. F word insert here please.

When my brother had some problems with his eyes that showed the same symptoms, every morning, every day my parents keep on coming into his room asking him to take leave and go to the clinic and hospital. What about me ? I'm still a person in your life, am I ?

ah crap I sounded like I went too far but still, I can't tolerate with this anymore. Crying on the way to work, putting a fake smile at work so customers won't complain and mistery shopper won't give me a fail. Ah, I can't put on the act anymore. Home is such a.. heaven. I have to say that.


See how I can't take all these anymore ? It'll help if certain people just stop fucking around me. If you know me well, you know when to stop or rather, never start it. Since you don't know me well, just minimize your fucking chattering about those trivial stuff that I need not know at all. Cause you're bringing me down with you and no, I don't wanna go down with you. So shut the fucking hell up before I make that happen.

who else wanna test me?

One staff didn't inform about her absence which made manager pissed. So, I hope I won't behave like the staff in future because never would I want my manager to have a bad impression on me. So.. yeah.

Prom is nearing and I've yet plan what I'm wearing.
Maybe I should just give it a miss..

& I think I've got a way to vote for big bang at the music festival or something. I've emailed to the owner of the thingy, and I think i've received a reply explaning how to vote since it's all in korean.

So, yaynesssssssssssssssss.

ok bye

Raise the white flag.


How does it feel when you come back from work in the evening and the house is still in a mess?
How does it feel to changed into home clothes and straight do the dishes & laundry?
How does it feel when you have done 50 percent that night and planned to do the other 50 percent the next day before going to work but things changed? like.. ? here it goes.
How does it feel when you can't use the air con, fretting that you might catch a cold and couldn't work but your siblings insists and there, you've gotten a flu now. How does it feel to be woken up 7 am by your sister telling you to clean up the room later. How does it feel to be woken up by your mother's loud knocking at your room window around 7.30 am when you finally managed to doze off. How do you feel when you already gather all your strength and get up and open the door, she later come in into your room and ask you to clean up the house before you leave to work. How do you feel when your mom said this and then she left somewhere with dad. How do you feel when you have all these things coming to you ?

Well how to I feel ? I was whailing the minute she left my room. I couldn't get back to sleep when I need it soooooo bloooooody much as I'm doing closing from 3 pm. I was crying out loud and no one came, cause no one's home. I feel.. Ugh. I don't know.

Best friend, I need you :(

I decided not to do much of the chores. I'm already late since I have yet cleaned up myself and have yet fill up my belly and not yet iron my uniform.


Passerby - So, hi old friend. I think yeah, I'm in contact with a lot of ex peixinians you see. So of course I'm still in contact with silas. But I'm wondering why ask about him, of all people eh ? And maybe, I'm still in contact with you but you don't seem to know yourself by putting your name as passerby. I mean, we used to be in the same school, so why do you have to call yourself passerby kan ? Something's fishy. hmm. reply back kay (:

Thanks Nicole and yes, I saw you many times too. hahaha (:

Nineteen movie release November 11 !



baby look so innocent yet fierce when he got fired up when he's facing the police. wow. I wanna watch this. Howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww? baby's acting looks promising & top just seem to get better & better.
AH, I love my boys.

Come back from Japan laaaaaaaa !

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Yesterday at work was alright. A little panicked at some point of time but yeah, I'm cool (: Closed a little late yesterday. Was happily singing Dancing Queen cause it's playing thru the speakers when someone's voice that I recognise saying, YAYA ! my god I was ps. It was Nadiah & Shaykh. They fetched me eh, thanks ! Walked to the bus stop and nad called out, IRAH ! SILAS !

Was happily eating my cheese burger when she did that. ahah, ps sia he gave me one kind of a face when he saw the burger half way coming into my mouth. He pointed to his phone & guess he was about to reply back. Okay, he took sucha cramp bus when another 858 was just behind his -.-'.

Bought Hershey sundae pie and went back home. Continued Coffee Prince till Episode 9 and went to bed.

Now waiting for Nad to come.

Like finally I've decided to do a proper entry during such busy time. So, let's hope I won't quit half way because I've got a lot of things planned.

Eversince work started & maid leaving at the same time, I felt tired the most of all days. First day at work was hay wire, I have to admit. I came in not knowing how and what to do until Amira guided me. Took my first order & served. It wasn't easy that day. Was caught by Jamin many times for not being attentive. The bell at the counter to collect the drinks, costumers waiting outside. The main thing I kept on forgetting, SETTINGS. taik sak aku. I took the orders, and never do settings. Gees. Closing was alright. Not bad la.
Got friend to balek with me on my first day, Filiana eh (:

Was already so tired from work but I couldn't sleep. Was still listening to Big bang around 4 am. The following day which is yesterday, woke up around 1pm and cleaned the whole house the min I got up. Lucky my brother's on long term MC, he helped out by mopping (: So cute. Everything ended around 6pm & had my first meal.

Since I was all tired from the whole day cleaning, I thought I could get some sleep easily but no, I was still awake around 5am this morning, knowing I'll be working at 9am. A lot of things were running in my mind. From how to explain to miss yati about some stuff to morning orders to injection to some personal problems to fan girl moment. HAHA. Woke up around 7 this morning with a headache.

Left home around 8.15am and was rushing my way down to Yishun. Waited for Amira and reached 9 on the dot. Wouldn't be late if I didn't wait for Amira but it's okay because I was scared to work alone. kyakya. So morning was easy. Slow & steady. Lunch time was !"$^%&*^&*!"$"£ Amira was like slowly taking her break while I went around doing most of the things alone. Well, it's not a bad thing. It's a good thing because I learned to be independent & got myself prepare for lunch crowd & working alone. Today was fun actually, I didn't forget settings, I didn't forget water, I took orders better than how I did on my first day.

Amin (:

Brother & Syl visited me today. (: Happy la. haha.

Ended at 3pm then went home. Wanted to get my jab today but no one to accompany me so I gave it a miss.

Took my nap after I got home till 7pm. Thenn, laundry.
Penat siiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkk.
Okay I'm practically explaining every single thing. Takperla.
6 to 11 tmr and sunday. Will be going for Training with Amira on wed.

To sum up, I'm already very tired :(

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Big bang, please come back from Japan. How could you guys celebrate Top's birthday without me? Okay irah stop it with the fan girl momentszxzxz -.- But yeah, I love how BB celebrate their members's birthday their way. Best.

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Hello friends, you're missed by irah tau.

Alyssha: I've been planning something actually. But due to no money & no time, I can't carry on with my plan. So, I just tell you what was on my mind okay? I know that since the Holidays started, we've not met and we seldom chat on msn nor we sms much. I felt guilty as a best friend who doesn't seem to treat her best friend like a best friend. ( haha ) So my plan was to give you a surprise visit over at your place with sweet treats, which now I realised you might not like. hahahah. So yeah, prolly macdonalds over at your place and we chillax and catch up. Always been wanting to do that but yeah, sorry tak jadi eh? :(

Fiah chibong: Kau, aku boleh senang meet kau pasal band. Tetapi, you didn't turn up for practices. Well yeah I've stopped coming for practices eversince I start working. So, I can't meet up with you and catch up. I also don't know what you've been up to despite reading your entries. So yeah, sad la kan.  :(

Nad & shake = bontots forever: Thank you for going to cotton On's interview with me which I didn't get -.- penat la nak marah2 lagi. hahaa. So again, thank you nad and shake for accompanying me to Clementi to settle my uniform and got a little lost in Pandan Loop & I love it how shake scares dogs without doing anything. hahaha, never ending la. Thanks (:

There's more shoutout I wanna do for my FRIENDS but I decided not to because people might get the wrong Idea that I'm still clinging onto my past & not admitting that I'm not over with him. Whoops, you've misunderstood the whole situation here missy. It's my history, my past & my part of my life which I've decided to keep so there's nothing you can do.

Everytime I go to your webpage and find something's not right, I've got the urge to make things clear but I realised, better not to. Cause I don't wanna be bothered ( though i really am already ) but yes, I'm closing one eye. Come on, you can do it _ _ _ _ _ * (:

Dangs. It took me and hour to finish this.
& Alyssha, lamer kan I carik my archives to show you kan kan ?


Hi, evereal (: You seem nice. HAHAHA.
BIG BANG HWAITING ! & Of course they are the best !
( okay ni part confirm fiah faa sumer tumbok muke aku )

Marrisa ! BIG BANG HWAITING !

2007 was history.
Ancient history I must say.

So, I'm quite surprised about the fact that It is still burning hot now, coming to an end of 2009.
My apologies if it has been such a wreck to your relationship or whatever it might have caused. But really, I don't see the reason why the topic's up again now.

Therefore, I shouldn't fret about feeling guilty. But still, I am really sorry.

AH.
To whom it may concern.

Goodnight. & tmr's the 4th.
Happy advance birthday Choi seung hyun shii ! (: